'we're all mad here'- the cheshire cat from alice in wonderland
i am scared. i am so scared. i have no idea what is about to happen and i do not feel like i am in control of anything. if i am not even in control of my own thoughts, how am i supposed to be able to live my life? what if everything i have ever assumed to be true is a complete falsehood and i am actually not the person i thought i was? having a small personal crisis at the moment… i feel powerless and i am trying to do this thing and i am failing, miserably. again, i am terrified..
